I was very surprised to read that one of my teachers thought:
“Wouldn’t it be wonderful if I died tonight?”‘
But soon I came to see and understand it was in the positive sense, a thought of some years ago, Dame Monica Mason, recalling her role as the Chosen Maiden in Kenneth MacMillan’s The Rite of Spring.
It was great to see how energetic Monica Mason was. Great also to see what an input Mrs. Mason every time knew to give in everything she did.
When she first did McMillan’s choreography, she just started at the beginning and went through the ballet believing
– totally believing – that I was going to die at the end.
That I had to dance so full-out that I would die. Some nights, I would have more energy than others, but always there was this compulsion to drain every single drop out of yourself. And there were nights when I actually thought,
‘Wouldn’t it be wonderful if I died tonight? That would make the front page!’ ”